Feelings ~____~

You know that certain feeling where you can't let go of someone?

Exact same feeling I have right now. How do you do this kind of things? The so called "Moving on?" I have no clue. But by just reading the word itself, It hurts me :'(

I mean, Do you need to forget everything? The love you have shared, The trials that you have surpassed, The memories you have shared, The lonely, The happy, sad and bad ones? It's soo hard T___________T

I feel stupid for pushing someone away, I mean you really love that person then you just push him away even if he/she's your happiness.

It makes me so sad when I think that I gave my very best and all knowing that he'll changed for me. He said trust him because he wasn't the same person anymore. Even when I can't trust him I pushed myself to put all my trust. If you love someone you should trust him.

I gave my trust, It went in the drain.

I know God has a plan for the both of us but sometimes I hope I would know what plan that was. I mean do we need to get hurt before we learn? Get blinded by love. It hurts when you wanted someone so bad no matter how hurt you are you just want the relationship to be working.

I got bruised so bad that I was afraid of giving chances. Chances that I gave were wasted. I love him so much but I chose to teach him a lesson that he can use for his next relationship.