1 year and 3 months :D

(James 1:2-4) Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials,
(temptations) knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let
endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in
nothing.

Look how time passes by LOL~

It's that day of the month oyea :DD

We don't usually celebrate monthsary and shizz I know -____-"

Happy monthsary Babe :')

Yes, I am crying HAHAH~ I'm so happy T______T I know we've been through a lot of trials and shizz thank you for being strong for the both of us. I just hope everything will work fine now that we have learned another lesson.

We've had a lot of changes over the year and months.

But through those year and months, we've grown closer together. And I hope we stay this way forever.

We've been into many Ups and Downs.

But we've managed to get through with them. In the process we Grow and Mature. I hope we stay in love with each other.

Babe,

 I know for a very short time, we have so many things in life that we don't understand, for the fact that we don't get along together. We have so many discrepancies, so many hesitations, questions and doubt not only for our relationship, but also within our self. But no matter what it takes, for this short period of time, I learned to love you so deep. I learned to forgive you when you crashed my heart, learned to accept what you've done, learned to dream about the future with you, learned to sacrifice my Pride, learned to smile when I'm sad, to sleep with sadness in my heart and hope that tomorrow everything's gonna be alright, to pray that you'll never say goodbye, to hope that whatever argument we're having you're still holding on, to wish the impossible things in life.  I learned to feel true love but all of those, I've never learned how to love you less in every waking day of my life.

Thank you so much Babe for letting me feel those kind of things,  Happy Monthsary and wish us a happy life and strong relationship together. And more years and months to come with fulfillment and harmony together. ILOVEYOU SO MUCH BABE AND WILL LOVE YOU MORE IN EVERY WAKING DAY OF MY LIFE. And I'm sorry for all those aches and disappointments I've done and thank you so much for everything Babe. I LOVE YOU ALWAYS :3 :* <3 

1 Year and 3 Months

15 Months

65.428571 Weeks

458 Days

10992 Hours

659520 Minutes

39571200 Seconds :''> <3

Jiuryeo haedo geuge nan jal andwae T__T

 

G.Na- I miss you already

:')

What a happy day with friends :3

Watched Silent Hill and ate many stuffs :D

It's my first time eating Street foods, BBQ and Isaw.

Isaw XP Me don't like it ~___~

 Got so full that I rubbed my tummy :9

A very nice day and a very sad night.

Gawd~ I hate being alone at night.

I get so lonely and sad and teary eyed as always T_T

Why? Why? Why?

Still moving on though.

YOU'll thank me one day for leaving you :')

I miss you though :'3

ANYWAY~

Yea so I'm gonna sleep 'cause it's 3:10 am already and my eyes is just so sore.

Good Night, God Bless :D

Angel/ Into your world

Listen to this beautiful song :))

It'll touch your heart very much :3
 

                                             

To My and Only

Raph,

 I know you wouldn't or couldn't read this by now. I hope all things was clear with us. I have loved you with all of what I have and knowing I still lack in some things I am deeply sorry.

 I only wanted to be your everything and at some point I thought I was your everything. But I guess, I was wrong, So wrong I was hurt but I guess that's life.

 I myself have decided to move on. But I guess moving on wasn't on my vocabulary. I know many persons can be more than you but I guess they'll have to surpass everything we had.

 The reason I was contented with what we have because I always have thought that you were the greatest person out there. Even I know more others are greater than you, They may have a pretty face but I can't forget that face that have been cheering me, loving me, makes me happy, sad and even made me cry.

 They may be more rich than you, But what will I do with that riches money and stuff when I don't love them the same way as I love you.

 They may be more than anything than you but I guess what I can really see was you who was always on the top. No one will surpass you even how great they are. No one will ever come close even by 1 inch. But I guess you weren't feeling the same way as I am.

So sad to think that we had plans ahead of us and then it all came crashing down before our very eyes. It's so hard to think that letting you go was the only answer I can see. I guess if you'll be happy in that case I'd always be happy for the one that I truly love.

God made plans for us we just don't know yet. If we're meant to be, we'll always be back in each others arms.

Dreaming of you lately with another girl is the hardest thing I can ever imagine. I was supposed to be that girl. I was supposed to be in that place. But if you'll be happy in that case I'll gladly take it with my broken heart. 

I know time will heal every broken piece of me, But mind you I'll always be here, waiting for you to come back as long as I can wait.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH T____________T
 
Your Guardian
   Johanna.

Feelings ~____~

You know that certain feeling where you can't let go of someone?

Exact same feeling I have right now. How do you do this kind of things? The so called "Moving on?" I have no clue. But by just reading the word itself, It hurts me :'(

I mean, Do you need to forget everything? The love you have shared, The trials that you have surpassed, The memories you have shared, The lonely, The happy, sad and bad ones? It's soo hard T___________T

I feel stupid for pushing someone away, I mean you really love that person then you just push him away even if he/she's your happiness.

It makes me so sad when I think that I gave my very best and all knowing that he'll changed for me. He said trust him because he wasn't the same person anymore. Even when I can't trust him I pushed myself to put all my trust. If you love someone you should trust him.

I gave my trust, It went in the drain.

I know God has a plan for the both of us but sometimes I hope I would know what plan that was. I mean do we need to get hurt before we learn? Get blinded by love. It hurts when you wanted someone so bad no matter how hurt you are you just want the relationship to be working.

I got bruised so bad that I was afraid of giving chances. Chances that I gave were wasted. I love him so much but I chose to teach him a lesson that he can use for his next relationship.

Hi Blog :)

Hi~ I miss putting or updating my feeling via blogger XD
I guess you're my companion once again :))
So yea, I'll be posting random thoughts and all what's inside my head and my broken heart. May time heal what has been broken, I know God will always be my side.

ILOVEYOU GOD SO MUCH.
I thank you for the trials you gave/give me. I know I'll learn something with this experiences and hopefully learn my lesson :)

Thank you for reading this, YOU ARE AWESOME :D