THAT~

You know that feeling?

When you missed someone. Do you think they miss you too?

Saw a bunch of guys and girls holding hands earlier.

I miss those times I spent with that one special person.

Late night chats, Late night texts, Late night I Love You's.

If I'd come back would you feel the same? Would I feel the same?

I'm still afraid. Maybe it's not the right time yet.

Looking at your pictures, Stalking your Facebook Profile looking through your wall. I'm still checking up on you :)

I just can't hide the fact that I still care and I still Love him.

Does he feel the same way?

These question kept me up all night.

Did he missed me?

Did he ate yet?

Who is he with?

I hope he's okay.

I bet he's having a good time.

I still think it's my stupidity that got us in this mess.

I should have trusted him in the first place. Well I can't blame my self for having this kind of IDK thing with trusting.

I got trust issues that I've never told him. I even went through counselling just to solve my problem. The counselor told me that it's a part of my personality already that I always check people. I don't give trust easily just like that. I really wanted to trust him that bad so I wouldn't worry that much.

But I guess I'm just simply stupid knowing that thinking too much and not trusting at the same time will be a hard thing.

He'll say that he's with his friend but in my head it's "I'm with girls."

If I can turn back the time again I would give him all my trust.

Well, I trusted him it's not just that much. More like 50/50.

50 goes to I believe in you and 50 goes to I don't think you're telling me the truth.

For all those girls or guys who's reading this, I want this to be a lesson to you TRUST the one you love the most and nothing else will be wrong. Thinking too much is not a good thing I tell you. It will only make things so much complicated.

I love him still, I do.

I know that he can't read this but I really wanna say: 

I still want to be with you badly but step by step I'm learning on how to let you go. It may be the hardest and the most hurtful thing that I'd do for my self but that's how much I love you that even though you're my only happiness I'm willing to sacrifice my happiness to make you free and happy.

I just don't think you deserve someone like me. I told you before that I'd hold on till the last second. Sorry for letting go. I'm just not that worthy of your time.  I still love you. You know that, right?

I hope you're happy. I'll always be right here whenever you need me okay? Till next time :)

PS: DON'T EVEN TOUCH HIM! OR YOU'LL BE A DEAD MEAT! :D

I LOVE RAPH! YEY~ <3